game

like a game of hide-and-seek

we let the covers fall

once more,

one last time

for under their cover,

within their darkness,

our breaths are held in

just for one more second - 

and side by side,

we lay on the floor

ceiling above -

infinity

it is silence we've asked

silence we're given

silence

shh

and with closed eyes 

we draw:

the universe,

infinite possibilities

but none of us,

none of you,

none of me,

none

eyelids flutter open

staring into space

fingers drum along

the rhythm to kill

my ribcage open

you reach in

my screaming soul

pitifully whispering... mercy!

oh, how they twist

and turn

and break 

and burn!

your fingers,

knuckle deep sunk

claws,

forcing me open 

I keep my eyes closed

the sounds of the universe

covering my screams

and it burns

and I am water

I sizzle 

when you

sink

and you are fire

you tremble

when I

breathe

oh, the thrill of this,

this chase

where I am prey

and you, predator

until the sun rises

and my eyes open

and I, predator

eat you, prey.

end of spring

I take a step back and stare at you

you who used to be like my skin

covering my body

so close

now so alien

I take a step back and stare at you

your promises ringing

all those small and quiet words

flowing...

all lies

I take a step and stare at you

you who seem to have forgotten

of me

I guess we're seasonal

and like flowers do,

bound to wither...

now that spring is almost gone

you too have left me

uprooted 

so I take a step back and look at you

one last time

friend...

bathroom floor [incomplete]

bathroom floor 

at 1am

staring into the darkness

which reaches out from the sink

bathroom floor

at 1am

reaching for the drain plug

from the tub

bathroom floor

at 1am

watching the sparks

going out of me

bathroom floor

at 1am

wondering what good

to have them all starting fires

bathroom floor 

at 1am

a shell on the shelf

whispers of lost oceans,

liquids quickly gulped down

just last week

bathroom floor

at 1am

the walls crumbling down

stone after stone

grasping

at the emptiness ahead

before turning 

into dust

bathroom floor

at 1am

who am I ?

what have I done

to put out the fire?

bathroom floor

at 1am

maybe I should just get up

...

type of wrong

center of me burns

begging for water

a hurricane to wash over

destroy and resurrect

submerge this fire

let if sizzle

like the sun does

at dusk

and when it's drowned

when it stops breathing

take your hands

and let it go

it goes and goes and goes

falling liquidly

drowning 

while the universe reverses

and planets, stars

they all align

and it floats through space

the big blue

they said it's darkness

that shines

but they've never seen

so much light

and as it travels

submerged

it loses track

of all that matters

there's the fire

sparkling

twisting

underwater

take my fire

and kill it, I asked.

don't give it wilderness

for it expands

consuming me.